Tomorrow...tomorrow....

Sooo... tomorrow is the first day of my internship. My stomach has been in knots ALL day long. I already know how the day is going to go though.

First, I am going to turn my TV off, and not be able to go to sleep because have 10,000 thoughts (or worries) running through my mind. One specific worry is not hearing my alarm clock and being late on my first day. So, I will stay awake until around 1am, then wake up tomorrow morning around 6:30, tired and pissed off at myself because I couldn't or wouldn't go to sleep.

Next, I probably wont like what I already have picked out to wear and I will probably forget my lunch. Wait, that isn't possible because I was too lazy to go to the grocery store tonight so I'll probably just eat some Fruit Loops or Ritz crackers and peanut butter.
And the list goes ON, and on, and on.

Okay, that post was written by the Rachel from 2011.

Rachel 2012 is going to have a more positive outlook about every aspect of life, try to complain a little less, compliment a little more, and try not to stress about the little things. Oh, and lose about 20 pounds.

But really, I am so nervous about starting my internship tomorrow. I hope that my teacher and I will get along and work well together. I hope that I learn things that I can use in my own classroom besides how to add or subtract. I hope that my students will like me and take me seriously. I hope that I have a teacher's desk and get to use really colorful pens to grade papers, and get to rearrange the room if I choose to do so. I hope that in the faculty meeting tomorrow that I won't have to get up in front of the entire staff and tell a little bit about myself, why I want to be a teacher, etc. Ahhhh.

I am also nervous about the fact that I will be graduating in May and I do not have a set plan as to where I will be living, where I will be teaching (notice the fact that I was optimistic about that fact that I WILL have a job), or what my life will consist of. If you know me, you know that in order for something to take place, I NEED A PLAN. I don't do well will spur of the moment trips, activities, etc. so not having a plan ruffles my feathers.

Please say a prayer for me tomorrow morning. Or tonight. Or tonight and tomorrow morning. I will be appreciative of any!!

Until tomorrow....